I've been staring at this blank screen for a while, trying to figure out how to put my thoughts into words. I'm still not quite sure how to do it, so I guess I'll just start and we'll just see how this goes...
Last Sunday I posted on Instagram about how I'm currently going through a divorce. The situation wasn't one I ever saw coming, but moving forward I know this is the right thing for me and the kids. I don't feel like it's appropriate to share specifics on the internet, and I don't plan to. With that, I do want to thank those of you who have been so respective and sensitive towards this.
In normal circumstances, I'd never share this on social media, but because of the nature of my account, and it being so heavily focused on family life, it was getting quite hard to hide.
The kids and I have been in Utah for awhile, and Piper is having so much fun with her cousins. She names all of them on her fingers at least 10x a day haha. She's soaking up all the love and attention she is receiving, and is enjoying the ridiculous amount of cookies my siblings keep slipping her.
I am surrounded by so much love here, and I am lucky to have family who are quick to help with the babes whenever I need it. I have my religion which is everything, and have been working with a therapist to help me process what happened, build myself back up, and simply heal in a healthy way. I'm extremely blessed to have an amazing friend, family, and religious support system.
Every single one of us goes through trials. Whether it's struggling with infertility, sickness, death, mental illness, abuse, miscarriage, family struggles, insecurities, etc. We all struggle at times. It's painful, and hard, and so so sucky when life throws sudden curveballs, but there is also this beauty in being stripped down and raw. It's a unique opportunity to learn, grow, heal, and become a stronger person that wouldn't happen otherwise.
I don't want to focus on getting a divorce, but rather on moving forward, taking care of myself, and most importantly, taking care of my babies. I've been working hard at filling their world with all the love and happiness, because they deserve it.
I have no idea what the heck I'm doing, but I'm pretty sure that's how life goes? Just...whatever it is you are going through, know you are not alone. If you don't have a support system, reach out to me! I'm right there with you. I have so much love for those who follow me, and I know that every single one of us is capable of rising above hard things.